The basketball gods must hate me.

It wasn't my year. I just knew it.

Wait, it wasn't my year in basketball.

Ginebra lost to Talk n' Text at the Finals and the Lakers bowed to Dallas, earlier than expected.

It's enough that one of my hated teams won and painstakingly beat my team in PBA, but come on. MIAMI HEAT going to the FINALS?! The basketball gods must hate me.

It wasn't just then that I bashed "King" James also known as LBJ (can't have his name printed here.NOPE.) And now, I'm about to eat my words. Or not.

In a miraculous turn of events, the Miami Heat and Dallas Mavericks are heading to an NBA Finals collision of some sort. That, after betting that Chicago Bulls and Oklahoma City Thunder will be the ones battling it out. A younger team with Derrick Rose and Kevin Durant. Come on! That's like the youngest rivalry in years now.

Or maybe I'm just a bitter fan. A bitter LA Lakers fan who was disappointed and scared that LBJ has a clear shot to get a ring, and even the Finals MVP title to boot.

What's worse is that I am no fan of the Mavs. I can't root on some team that I barely know the players, save for Dirk Nowitzki, Jason Terry and Jason Kidd. While I was a fan of Jason Kidd, it seems that it's not enough to go with Dallas.

And now the worst, I am betting my shoulder-grazing feather earrings that the Miami Heat will win this one. I admit, I loved D-Wade, but since his partnership with LBJ, he was kind of a collateral damage. Suffice to say, the Bosh-Wade-James trio really made a whole lot of difference to the team. That, with the guidance of Fil-Am coach Erik Spoelstra.

So YES, I am rooting for Miami Heat.
1.) because of my former love for D-Wade
2.) because of the teamwork they built regardless of their "superstar" status and
3.) because of Pinoy pride.

But let me get this straight -  I am rooting for Miami Heat as a team with the better chance at winning the Finals, but I am still not rooting for LBJ or whoever he thinks he will be after this Finals series.

Gahd, the *bitter* truth hurts.

The WORKING COMMITTEE.

So yeah, there was a little outpour that I called out as a "blessing" last Staurday.
Still, the fun run pushed through and who's the happiest of all?

THE WORKING COMMITTEE of course!

It was worth the rain shower!
Screw that - it was all worth it. :)

I am my father's DOUBT-er.

I have always been confident of the future.

Of what lies ahead for me. Of what and where I wanted to be.

But lately, I’ve been tumbling down. Losing focus. Questioning myself. Doubting.

Will I ever reach that goal? Am I destined for such happiness?

Whatever confidence I had before, it all came crashing down in front of me. I’ve always been hopeful and dreamy and cheerful. But I don’t know what I am now. I’m afraid to take the next step. I am crowded with emotions.

Most of all, I fear.

The past few days, and even months, were crazy. Literally. One thing I learned from it though is that LOVE, in all its glory and universality, changes the game. It can destroy or improve your game plan. It can change your life forever.

Here I am tumbling down. Losing focus. Questioning myself. Doubting.

Or maybe, maybe I’m just tired…and hurting.

Rain, Rain, GO AWAY!

Ever since the start of the year, we, at the company, has been organizing (and agonizing) an event that was supposed to happen last April. But due to some changes of plans it was moved to May 8 and now May 28.

It is a fun run event and I am, in all honesty, an events coordination neophyte. Handling PR and Publicity, and later on external communications for PhilSPADA, I was literally choked with worries and questions on what to do next. Good thing our boss and head organizer Sir Bob has been cool as a mentor for both Uly and me (neophytes).

We've braved this stretch and are just a few days from our actual baptism of fire, so to speak. And that's when "tragedy" struck us.

Chedeng, a tropical typhoon, has been teasing us of the weather condition on Saturday. We've been monitoring updates from the web and the news and literally checks the skies for a glitch or a small sign of a possible outpour on Saturday.

Trust me, we all wanted to get this over with. Not because we just want this to end and move on to the next one. Well, yes, that's one, but we just really wanted to literally see the sun after a long season of heavy clouds and dark skies.

We're literal as that.

And so we are praying, pleading even, for the rain to go away and give us that precious ray of the sun.

Rain, rain go away
Come again another day
We just wanna run out and play

And now for plugging,

Weirder

Am I ready to move on?

It’s been weird.

These past few days are weird.

And I think, I think I’m scared.

But I guess I should give it a try.

Let’s see.

Stay calm.

But it’s only easier said than done.

It is weird.